Monthly Archives: April 2005

Birth ~ The Movie

this movie eerily illustrates the deep connections we establish and the delusions we’ll believe in to make them real, and makes a chilling and haunting journey through the human psyche. Anne loses her husband, only to have him reappear 10 years later on the eve of her marriage to another man, but in the guise of a young boy. Anne questions her choice to marry, and begins falling into a horrifying delusion that she and the boy need to be together. the story weaves through her life as her choices to be with the boy causes it falls apart, and its haunting reality is a warning to all of us to be mindful of our actions. overall, the movie was a good watch; Kidman was very realistic and easily illustrated the position her character chose to be in. Cameron Bright was remarkable and utterly convincing, and never once acted like a child. the characters evoked sympathy at their plight and the background music was profound and haunting. however, it was somewhat monotonous and the long scenes focused around the actor’s morose and pensive faces got old, quick. i enjoyed it once, but won’t be adding it to my collection.

eh. : )

CL ~ Crochet List

by far the best crochet group on the ‘net. currently CL has 2500+ members and hosts monthly charity drives, great swaps, and tons of hints, advice, and pattern links.

if you crochet, you should join. : )

from the groups’ website:

“Crochetlist (also known as CL) is… a very active, unique group of over 2000 crocheters.

Crochetlist members live in many different countries all over the world and are of all ages, including kids, tweens, teens, young adults, and adults young at heart. 🙂

Discussions on Crochetlist include anything and everything about crochet and other crafts (such as knitting, quilting, rubber stamping, scrapbooking, sewing, etc.). CL members also enjoy getting to know each other through group posts, individual emails, IRC chats, and in-person meetings.

Members also participate in interesting activities such as our Crochet-A-Thon (CLCAT) charity challenges on IRC (internet relay chat) in #crochet chat — For more information about CLCAT: );
our Chains of Thought newsletter:;
our special Pick-Me-Up and Cuddles projects, plus a variety of great exchanges and such.

Crochetlist, established in Jan. of 1996 on and moved to Egroups in Nov. of 1999, has been on Yahoo! Groups since the Egroups/Yahoo merger. CL often has 50+ messages or 3-4 digests per day.

CL’s companion website is Crochet Musings:

Thank you and Happy Crocheting!
Crochetlist administration”

from Google

“…if people don’t take the time to understand the underlying role of libraries and other information systems, then they don’t get the full depth of a foundation on which to perform research.”

— Jonathan Rosenberg, Google’s VP of Product Management

Lila’s B-day Presents

so for Lila’s b-day i took her down to Corona at this horse farm for a pony ride… already my beautiful little baby is asking me, ‘Mommy, let’s go to the store and buy ponies to ride!’ that’s my girl!

honestly, i was apprehensive as to whether or not she would actually ride a horse – they are quite bigger than her, and lately she’s been more cautious with things, but no. she jumped right up there and rode till the last possible minute. she chattered and patted the horse, saying things like, “Pearl is my friend. i like Pearl!” we stayed for about a half hour petting them through the fence and talking about horses. it was fun.

we also had a bbq on Saturday for her, which was great fun! Lila had a blast running around and playing with all the kids, and i had fun playing hostess. we grilled burgers, chicken, and hot dogs. Candace made a salad, and we all had birthday cake after dinner. it was a great day and i believe my little one had lots o fun. : )

Digweed ~ Fabric 20

quality Digweed, very good. this cd is more on the mellow side, but is not lacking in excellence by any means. very consistent flow and rhythm, the tracks weave a nice sound together. you begin in one place, but end up in somewhere completely different by the end of the cd; you don’t notice the subtle transition at all… you just look up out of your musical journey and realize that you’re not where you thought you’d be.

track 3 is my fav; i love the ethereal vocals and gentle tone. tracks 7-9 remind me of 80’s electronica, like Ministry’s Twitch and, to a lesser extent, some of the remixes on the 12 Inch Singles.

the best part is that Lila likes it, too. it’s not often anymore that i can listen to a stretch of music without getting assaulted by musical critism in Childese coming from the backseat. but she does dig it; i caught her pounding her My Little Pony’s head into the car door on beat while humming, bless her heart.

for sure, add it to your collection! : )

this weekend

so i went down to San Diego this past weekend to visit Eliz and attend her baby shower. i just *love* (insert sarcasm here) trying to get ready to take a trip down the 15 in this town. with the other zillion people here, it never fails to take at least a half hour for any minor event, like using the money machine. i adore wasting my gas aimlessly pimping the Wa Mu parking lot so i can race over to wait for 20 minutes while everyone and their brother do something to the ATM. Love it. And let’s not even talk about attempting to purchase gas. can you believe 2.50$ a gallon? wtf???? i sure hope the government gets off its ass and starts funding hydrogen fuel cell research, cuz getting gas really sucks right now. insert the same BS waiting with half of LA here, and then add insult to injury by raping 35$ out of your wallet just for gas. ugh. thus, add an hour to the 2 hour trip just to get cash and gas. i think i’ll start running my errands at 2 in the morning.

but with all the delays that LA provides, clear sailing down the 15 (that is, once i got past that nasty I-10 to the 60 to the 90 stretch) let me make up the time. one place where LA-ers *dont* wait is the freeways… when clear, 90 mph is acceptable velocity in these parts. *THAT* i appreciate!

a good time in SD… it was the highlight of the weekend. the downer this weekend was the obvious solution to my financial woes… i have to sell my house. i’m very upset by that – i worked hard to get the damn thing in the first place, but with the nasty 9% increase in my lot rent starting May 1st, i just can’t make it. however, this may turn out to my advantage; in one year, i gained about 20,000$ in appreciation. can you believe it???? i’m not sure what to think, yet. so now i have the dilemma of What To Do… i have choices, of course.

Option A
leave. take my $$$ and go buy property somewhere. perhaps New Mexico, or perhaps Washington, where my sister lives. part of me is torn for that… i am totally down for adventure, and a fresh start away from this rather rediculous California Rat Race has its appeal.

Option B
stay. put the cash into another property, perhaps a cheep fixer upper (i am fairly handy and not afraid of power tools) that i can then resell at a profit close to extortion within a year. a friend of mine was telling me last nite that he and his bro are planning to buy a multi-unit, and using the rent to help pay living expenses.

so i dunno what do to. i guess i’ll sell the house and see where the cards fall, so to speak, about where my future path lies.